Letting go

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You hold onto people who don’t love you anymore like a shipwrecked sailor clinging to the rocks even though he is being battered to death against them. You fear letting go for the same reason mountain climbers wear harnesses: you’re scared to fall. To fall into the abyss of ‘what now’, ‘what if I never love again’ or ‘what if love never finds me’. The truth is “part of the journey is the end” and you’re scared of it ever ending even though it already has. You hold onto the hot coals of the past, even as your hands continue to burn because you know to feel something is better than feeling nothing at all. Fear is why you hold on. A fear that is not real, ‘what if I fall’ you ask…

what if you fly?

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